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This entry is dedicated to my dear Sheenin... as she has mentioned me in her blog with pictures of me, here is one for you! Loves...
How should i start... Hmm... Sheenin is the type of girl who you will either hate or love... Things she do is quite of the extreme and it takes a big heart to accept it, just like how she has bao toh me two times... haha... i almost wanted to faint and die loh... So since then, i have been very careful about telling her things.
I'm very happy for you, seeing you walk out of  bad relationship gracefully and hoping happily into a better one... Bear! if you are reading this, you better cherish this little girl ok! Don't let her be like me... old and lonely sia... hahaha... so now that i mention you,you have to mention me in your blog!!! muahahahaha.....
Really envy you guys,so lovey dovey... hug and kiss all the time... The last time i hug and kiss was with you know who lah... but that only happens when he have to much to drink and is able to send me home... kaoz... Just remember not to leave me out in any fun outing cuz there still is a lonely old lady at CCK waiting for a miracle to happen. But of course i dowan to be the light bulb when both of you go dating,consider my size,i'm quite a big light bulb... hahaha... 
So both of you please cherish the happy moments and let it live forever... you won't know when it will end...

 Yes! All sensitive new age people reading this entry, you are right. This entry is about our 8th world wonder, matters of the heart... The much hated or adored ' L.O.V.E '. While waiting for my journal on Vietnam, here is a little juice from my heart...

I got out of a relationship 6 months ago and the relationship only lasted not more than 6 months! Amazing aftermath... It was a sweet sweet love... he was almost perfect... Funny thing how the man you love always seem perfect... The first time we met, it was magical! Imagine... A very wasted me walking into my usual club and it was playing my favorite songs, as usual... My girlfriend who was still fresh and sober pointed in a certain direction and gave me the ' cutest playboy alert ' signal. And of course, not in a right state of mind, i immediately planted myself infront of him and did my thing... I couldn't even figure out how he looked like as i was going blind under the influence of alcohol overdose. I only knew that he was a towering 1.8m plus, just the right size, in a white tshirt. I wasn't even sure if he was the guy my girlfriend was refering to. Totally wasted! 

Soon, the magic started to happen... After a song or two, he came closer... My back was facing him... and through the third song, we were grooving in the same rythem. How i felt so right in his arms, falling into his chest... the way we had the same moves... We were in our own world. Never have i had such a beautiful dance... It was something like sex on the dancefloor but this is sex on the dancefloor with your 1st love. Magic! Nobody can replace him in anyway... He is one of  kind...

Though we were known for being players in the field, we got along very well... but our ugly side got the better of us. We could no longer control our emotions... and we fought till our heart could no longer take it. There was no turning back... But yet there is still a big part of me that still loves him,mo matter how much either of us has moved on. This reminds me of a song by Rihanna and Neyo, Hate That I Love You. Is this why they say that love is blind? A little piece of advice for lovers out there, don't let the unhappy times take away your happy moments. Always remind yourself how and why you fell in love with each other. Communication and understanding is the pillar of a relationship... Never take your partner for granted, never be taken for granted.

All right, enough of the past. After him, i started running and hiding... My heart didn't want to forget him, i couldn't. Every single guy who confessed to me was given the slam down. It is widely known and approved by most lost souls that getting into a relationship is the easiest way out of a bad one. I agree to that but its not the best way for me as i have tried it countless times. The pain will eventualy sip off and the reason to continue the relationship will be gone. Its like making use of the poor fellow to get over your own pain by incurring pain on him. I have done it too many times so this time, i insist to let my heart take its time. And its seriously taking its own sweet time!

I kept my heart to myself, not allowing any guy to have it. And finally i stopped running... I needed to breath... find somewhere that my heart can be safe. So i thought... This guy is nothig like ryan and so i assumed he is the one i can depend on. He is a... Come to think of it... I don't really know him enough to name it out... i'm just out of words for him... Not that he is a bad guy. He is not. But he is the type who treats everybody the same. He loves his friends and family and they are on the top of his list. I don't see myself climbing to that spot in anyway. Not the slightest bit. I feel like i'm treated like every other girl. Are my expectations too high? Or am i not supposed to be on the top too... I really don't know.

I woke up from a sleep, all about him. The first thing that happened when i open my eyes, tears... Tears stream down my face... It the pain and agony i have been keeping my heart away from. After all the hard work, i still can't avoid it. You can never run away from it. After the magic came and gone, i was too paranoid at being hurt. With every small little thing that feels painful, i will pick myself up and leave. But everytime i wake up, i didn't want to give up. I keep holding on to the happy times, ignorant of the pain. This is where ' don't let the unhappy times take away your happy moments ' comes in handy. But is this a state of denial? I'm quite sure that i am in agony... 

Whats my next step? To hold on? Continue running? I'm too afraid to do anything... My mum gave birth to me wen she was 23, and i am that age now. So naturally, my imaginary wedding bells are ringing. hahaha... and i want to have 5 babies! Coming from the kinda family background, all i want in life is to be the woman behind a successful man (my husband of course!). No dreamz of becoming a career woman whatsoever... Just a simple dream of traveling around the world and finally settling down with my man... Walking through thick and thin... Well, its the in thing now to have a broken family so my dream might just be a dream.

Ok, enough of blabbering on and on about L.O.V.E.... drop me an email at miiwmiiw@gmail.com for any comments.

Thank you!

Hey you lovely people out there! OoOhh... I'm feeling so light-hearted today, must have had a good sleep. 
Big news today! I AM FLYING OFF TO VIETNAM TOMORROW! Woosh! I will be there with a friend of mine, backpacking from Hanoi all the way down to Hochiminh. Everybody will be going like : ' you? backpacking?' and im like ' yeah backpacking? whats wrong with me backpacking?'. 
I'm a 'lets get down and dirty' kinda girl alright! I mean halow~ its Vietnam, backpacking would be a good way to enjoy the culture and history. This is my first time backpacking and i really hope its a smooth one... I will be posting pictures and a update of my trip on the next post.

Next up, i would like to introduce some blogs that i will visit almost everyday. Firstly, i would be 'www.expressivelyjoho.blogspot.com'. He is this chubbly and bubbly man who loves his job and does it so well that my mum said : ' he is a beautiful man' after i introduced his blog to her. Such strong words! His work is indeed Great. Of course there will always be someone better but his is good enough for me. Ok, a little intro of this man i know... He is know widely as JOHO. He is one of the well known wedding photographer in Singapore, popular among many couples. Rumor has it that he is still single and he has quite a generous bank account! Hahaha... So darling, if you are reading this, you still owe me a beef stew! Hahaha... Photographers like him him are saints... they capture those beautiful memories that you want to keep forever... they capture your beauty...

Secondly, this blog is for you ladies out there, yummy!!! This blog belongs to our top Muay Thai Boxer, Kim Khan Zaki aka Zach. He is not just a good looker but he is amazing at what he does too. Zach is in The Contenders, now showing on AXN. In his blog, www.zig-zach.blogspot.com , you can see lots of video clips of his fights and intro of The Contenders. He undates his blog very often with lotsa juicy info of what he is doing, so do visit him. He also reply to his emails and comments from devoted little fans like moi! Haha...  

Lastly, a new found love of mine, www.yokzuan.blogspot.com. He was a school mate of mine, we have know each other since the begining of our puberty period. He has the intellect of a wise old man and the intelligence of a genius. I spent a fine amount of time proving to myself that he is not weird, like most little brains would think of him. He is far from weird and looking through his blog, he reminded me of what i used to love doing... reading... In my younger days, i loved to read but as time passed... I got caught up with my daily life and trying to grow up, i lost my heart as well, i lost myself along the journey. He is not just any smart boy out there but from his blog, you can see that he is very sensitive to his surrounding and people. Yok never stops finding out what he wants in this vast and complicated world. He is a very good example of how one should look at life...   There is only one path. And I will live my life only in the way that is of dedication, meaning, passion, conviction and purpose. I must, for only to salvage my purpose to exist.

Hope all of you will love the blogs i mentioned... enjoy!

Well... I'm not trying to be emotional in this entry but... sometimes when you need to let it out, you gota do... so bear with me...

On my way home way from work juz now... I was listening to some very heart breaking songs... Have you ever felt that stinging pain in ur chest when you hear a sad love song? That was how i felt... the pain. 
The first person that came to my mind was him, even his name is beautiful to me... all i can see was his eyes, the way he looked at me like i was the only one. The only one who took his heart, the only one who took mine. When you love someone, you only remember the happy times. A 'sorry' from him and he is forgiven. You see him flaws and all... 
To all lovers out there, who loved and lost... why let the unhappy times take away your happy times? 
Life is short and time wait for no man... cherish what you have now and never regret... this is all you get... love life and cherish!

First time?! After 22 years? Yup... this is my first time blogging after 22 years... i'm so excited as this will be a great new adventure and i'm sharing it will all of you out there.
I have seen quite a number of blogs out there and i hope you guys will like mine... 

A liitle introduction of myself:

Like all viewers out there, i am born and breed in Singapore. I am a free soul who doesn't like to be tied down to a place... 
As you can see, i love cats, with the influence of my late grandpa. I'm much like a cat, curious and love to roam.
I f i were a cat, i'm the type who would scratch on the door to be let out but will always return to the comfort of home...
Throw me new toys and i will play with them every so often... soon you will see me dancing to the next toy... but once in awhile i will be back to the old ones to reminisce happy times or to remind myself why i did not stay.
I might have been a fat cat cuz i love to eat. Especial sashimi... give me anything raw n i might clean it up...
Do cats eat fish eye? i think they do... i love them too...
Not forgetting everyone's favorite, pasta! Its like italian maggi, you can whip up a good meal blindfolded.
Do you ever notice what cats do most of the time? They stare into space... Thats what i do and it scares the shit out of people... It scare the shit out of me too as sometimes it is involunteery... i guess its a habit i can never change... i simply sapce out!

Now to the most important part of a person's life. Dreams, goals. 
I have very simple dreams and goals. Dream, to travel around the world. Goal, to be the woman behind a successful man, that is to be a good wife, lover, friend and mother. When i told my mum these, she was like : ' What? You have no dreams? You just wana be a housewife?!' . Well i think thats what i meant because its quite hard to find a woman of these century to have an ambition like this and i tell you, its not an easy task, trust me.

Ok, before i seriously put u to sleep... Please visit my blog for more... 

P.S. Life is short, live it to the fullest.

Love Love,
MiiwMiiw 

Im gona put u to bed